i must say,

i was walking.
thinking about lots of things,
my frens,my family,my girl.
i have a sudden paranoia that the best things in life are gonna leave me.
but i know my family won't.
what im more concern was my frens and my baby.
i can't imagine my life without them.
i probably be talking to either objects or myself.
soon enough,i'll go crazy.
i know friends come and go,but these friends i have right now,they're special.
to make it simple,i don't wanna loose the things i have in life right now.
i was so deep in my thoughts that i didn't realise khai was standing infront of me.
he gave me a smile.
at least i know i still have them to keep for the mean time.
before we all grow up,n go our separate ways.
this is reality,but i doubt we'll not be seeing each other.
they say fate is in god's hands.
god is almighty,he can change our fate in a blink of an eye.
but,we have to overcome obstacles n pray that this friendship lasts.
believe it or not,i pray that you guys will stay here when i have the chance.
no matter what,we'll go through thick and thin.
forget yesterday,what matters is today,tomorrow.
we wont hear a word haters say,they dunno us anyway.
what acin said what was damn fcuking right,
we've been together for 3 years for gods sake.
i still remember,alot of people make use of us.
we are their spare tyres.
remember aminah?sallihin?shakir?aisyah?wati?fatimah?wan cuak?shakila?
remember them guys??
they backstabbed us,trying to force their way into this family tree.
they thought they could break our bond with lies and misleads.
they failed,what a joke,
guess what?we're still standing tall,still here,still slacking,still causing shit,still making ea other smile.
i've never had frens like you guys.my previous frens,ey never last for more than 2yrs.
but this,this is real.
this is good.
i love you guys,i'll be there whenever you guys need me.
RESV PEEPS,best of the best.
and i mean it when i say best =)











slacked,baby and e rest came.
i was glad to see her.
appreciate you coming here even when your nt well =)
got screened and stuffs.
sent baby to bustop,thn went back to 718.
got screened again by the same guys.
what the fcuk.
i hate both of them.
one's a fat bastard,the other one's trying to act cute n funny.
we'll your not.lucky you didn't throw vulgars,
coz if you had,ima get you fired.
after your fired,ima get you for what you say.
you are a servant of the law.you think your the only one who can play by law?
im 17,im not as stupid as you when your my age.
i know your name,its boon something seng i think.
no matter,your name's no good anyway.
you suck soo bad,that your name wasn't even enlisted for hell.
even the hell guards gna kick your puny ass.
yea,i have alot to say.
boon whatever shit ya name is.fcuk it.

it takes tym.

normal routine.thn,


the rest came.baby came too.
she's gg off in a while.at abt 3.45pm.
everything went smooth.
till when me n baby talked to farhan.


earlier on,i had sort of a quarrel with baby.
i dun wish to say.
but,bella told me that she couldnt imagine me not being by her side.
bella told me she cried for me while quarelling.
i was touched.soo i said sorry to her.


back to when baby was talking to farhan,
infront of me she said she didn't want to be with me actually,
its becoz bella sort of psycho her.
at that point,i didnt know what to say or do.
i was out of words,out of breath.
i went to the back to have a break from it all.


sometimes,i just cant describe you.
at one point,you say you cant imagine me not being by your side
and the next,you said you didn't want to be with me actually.
????????.
my friends once ask,how's ur gf like?
i was speechless,i was confused.
all i said was "she's mine la,dun kpo!"

to be honest,i really don't know how to describe you.
sometimes,your gave me your best,
sometimes,you gave me half or so.
sometimes,not even a quater.

im always constant.
my love for you is never less,nvr none.
i knw you said not to love you too much.
fine,i can do so.
im doing favours for you,
why not you do for me too.

prove me wrong.
prove to me that what i said abt your love for me is false.
i know you have your bros/sis to attend to.you gta manage your time wisely,u just went for a course that teaches your how to manage time.
i just need alil more from you.and i'll be fine.ok babe?
ILOVEYOU¬IMISSYOU

falling for you way too deep =)

woke up,showered and stuffs.

went down to slack at 718 at arnd 2pm.

met nas and mad nor.

shortly after,i went to playground to meet loloq.

thn baby called say she finish her cwo!

which means she's coming!

spend time tgt.

something emotional happened amngst most of us.

i dun wish to elaborate the part abt what happen between me n baby.

coz ey're private!

but,i suddenly realised,my frens we're always thr when i need to express myself.

they helped me alot.i've not done my best for you guys.

you guys gave me solutions to my problems.

i 'salam' the guys,telling them ey're the ones i couldn't live w/o.

it was soo emotional when it came to aaacin.

after i 'salam' him,he ask me to follow him to a corner.

we hugged and his first words were "if you need anything,you know i'll be there for you,no matter what"

i didn't know why i suddenly shed my tears.he did the same too.

i mean,c'mon,we've been brothers for 3 whole years.of coz its normal to cry for your own brother.

farhan said the same thing to me too.

soo we hugged.

did e same for loloq,phin n aleaf.

if i we're to describe how much you guys mean to me,a hundred stacks of thick foolscap paper wouldn't be enough.

we're truly are a family.and i hope we will stay this way forever.

coz i've never cried for brothers before in my entire 17yr life.

baby,

im real sorry i couldnt call you up.

i know u say its fine,but i feel upset =(

coz i couldn't be there for you =(

its abt my dad.

he doesn't support me having a girl.

all he wants is to discriminate me.

all he wants is to humiliate me.

i dun give a fcuk.all i gta do is hold on patiently till im older.

probably i'll get alil more freedom.

dad,whatever i do now,is what you did when ur my age.

but im not stupid enuff to do it for long.

at least i know what i'm doing.

at least i didn't drag me teenage yrs till im 24.

unlyk you dad.

i appreciate all the things you've done for me.yes i do.

but i just don't like you.

maybe its becoz of that horrible incident that took place when i was younger?

whatever the cause,i don't think i can behave myself.

the more you control me,the more imma rebel.

im not gna give up till you loose.

im not a bad kid,im just sick an tired of your ego.

i admit,i'm alil ego too,

two ego's cant stay in one apartment.

i tested you,i got beat.

lets see if you test me.

i dun think i'll call you my dad anym if you do so.

look into my heart n you'll find love =)

splendid!
woke up at 11 plus,msged baby,showered n stuffs.
went down at arnd 1 plus.slacked at 718.
met phin first,thn aleaf.
shorly after,baby reached =D
slacked at playground.played childish games.
somethin happened today,don't wish to elaborate.
all i know is,had fun with e rest,spend time with baby.
that's what matter most =)
slacked till arnd 7.30,sent baby to main road to take cab home.
went back,slack till 8 plus.
reached home,showered.
immediately called baby,chatted on the phone for abt 2 hrs or so.
it seriously was nice to hear her voice.as i said,ey're music to my ears =D
hope to meet baby tmrw.coz i know tues n wed she ain't free.
gna miss her badly on those days =(

im retarding by the second.
without you,i can go crazy.
dunno how to face a day without my sunlight =(







ILOVEYOU~IMISSYOU baby!

it was wonderful =D

okay,went down.nobody thr.shortly,sabby,xenia,bella,sherry,mir came.

slacked,fetched baby at block-dunno-what.

went back 718 n waited for e rest.

spent time with baby,till at arnd 4 plus or so we went to pasir ris park.

baby kept calling farhan bulldog!hahah,funny sia! =)

firstly went to white sands,went to look for a shop.

i dun even know what shop we're looking for,i just followed.

in e end,found it.

it was outside white sands near 7-eleven thr that something funny happened.

baby was hugging me.thn i realised she's pushing me or some sort.

i wasn't seated properly,my legs we're not on the ground,thn suddenly,THUD!

i fell down back first,baby fell on me.

well,she didn't actually fall.just tripped i guess.

paiseh sia!hahah

alot of ppl saw me!

but heck care,i dun stay ard that area mah..

thn off to pasir ris park to slack.

sat down with baby and took some photos.

e rest wanted to go macdonald's to have a bite.

soo took 403-ed back to pasir ris inter.

baby fell asleep on my lap.

she looks lyk an angel when she's asleep.

even though i don't know what an angel looks like,

i can roughly guess how they look like juz by looking at her.

slacked at mac for awhile,sent baby to nearby taxi stand.

she hugged n kissed goodbye.it felt so special =)

i thought to myself,ima lucky bastard!

slacked with e rest till arnd 9plus decided to head home coz my dad's yelling again.

21-ed,home sweet home.

showered,friendstered,didn't go online,blogged.

baby,

what we had today was special.

swear its true.i can feel it in my heart.

i know you felt it too.

iloveyou dear♥♥♥

lets make this last forever =)

today,saturday.

its saturday.
woke up super early!
guess i miss you too much baby =)
but thn i went back to sleep n woke up at arnd 11.

meeting baby later on.gg pasir ris thr slack.
im missing you too much babe!
hope evrything turns out okay =)

my wildest dream came true.

friday:

woke up,went down.

slack3.nth beter to do huh?i know.

went to 716 to slack.

before i could even slack,i saw something!

took a few steps back...

it was a cockroach!eeeewwww!!

me and baby went to the opposite block to sit.

scared uh..

some of em even picked up those poor creatures and played arnd with it.cheesepie!

kns uh!

i saw Nas walking towards me n baby holding that thing in his hand!

i ran away.hahaha

SORRY BABY IF I LEFT YOU ALONE INSTEAD OF PROTECTING YOU!

I SWORE TO PROTECT YOU IF ANY COCKROACHES COMES NEAR!

but first i have to overcome the fear.teehee!

went home shortly after baby went off.reached home at abt 8.40pm.

boring uh..so went back down to slack till 10.45pm.

had to reach home in 5 mins coz i promised baby that i'll be home by 10.50.

i ran all e way home.didnt want to disappoint her =)

friendstered,onlined,conferenced call with baby,ruyu,sabby,xenia n khai.

after that,zzZzZzz.

baby,

i wanna hold you tight in my arms,

a day w/o you its lyk a day w/o sunlight.

my life's in total darkness.

1 min feels lyk an hour when im not with you.

i want to spend my time with you coz its precious.

i've never had someone like you before.honest.

ur voice,ey're are music to my ears.

i love you,i miss you♥

ho ho ho

today was alright.

it was all cool.

alot of peeps came down.

made a new friend name fiona.not fiona xie hor!but she look abit lyk her though.

fooled arnd,slacked,went cycling arnd the park nearby.

went to bedok inter at arnd 7.30 to look for adapter.

afraid it might cost alot,loloq brought $50.

but it only costs 5 bucks.ehehhe

e rest of coz he spend uh.lyk idiot sia...can save but dowan.

oh n yea,while tompang-ing fiona,almost fell coz she tickle me.

if i fall i think i'll have another bruise added to my leg.already had two due to fall while cyling.

clumsy?nahh...i think im cursed.hehehe!

dear special someone,

i want this to be over.

i dun say special person becoz i love you,its becoz i don't want to name you here.

you told me to take care and said you didn't want to enterain me no more.

im fine with that.coz lately,my feelings have fade.

in the end,your the one who rang me up.

i chose not to pick it up coz i know you gonna nag n rant.

its over,at least i assume it is.

you don't have a place in my heart.

i don't need to label you as girlfriend no more.

you can jolly well forget about me.

im truly fine with that.

dear hazirah,

please do not have a crush on me.

i know i can't stop crushes n stuffs.

but i can tell you one thing,

it will never exist between us.

i don't want anything to happen.

i'm telling you nicely.

please stop asking whether i have broken up or anything.

i'll tell you,it is.its over between me n her.

happy??i know you are.

but,i won't be with you.

i don't intend to.

so please i beg you to leave me alone!

tears of ashes

alright,nothing much happen.

woke up,went down,slacked,jogged,onlined,friendstered,blogged.
boring sio...

think i need to find time for pictures.
think i need to find something different other than slacking.
think i need to work.but sadly,have to wait till end of year.
think i need to ignore someone in my life coz she's bugging me even though she has that special status in my life.im sry to say this.






dear special someone,
can you be a lil bit understanding instead of being a control freak?
coz i need space.
your always assuming that i don't love you like i use to.
i know you treasure all my msgs.i do too.
even a simple "good morning dear" means alot to you,i know.
but you see,i'm not using bill.i'm a prepaid user.
sometimes,i'm out of prepaid.so,i can't msg you.
a day without my msg,you think i don't love you no more.
c'mon,even if you don't msg or call me,i dun think that.
so lets be grateful that we're together.
be grateful that you have a place in my heart.
as you know,i rarely keep people in my thoughts.
what i simply mean is,your loved.
i'm thankful to have you.
i know i don't show much of it.
to be honest,i don't know how to.
i've shed my tears for you.you don't know right?
your right,sometimes i can't be bothered to answer your calls.
its becoz i wasn't in the mood to talk.becoz i need time for myself.
time to reflect and such.
if i don't answer your call,don't go complaining to your frens about me.
later,one by one will call and ask what's wrong.
that will only anger me.
when angry,i won't say or do anything.
when i don't say or do anything,you get upset.
saying i don't treat you right.*sigh*
you see,whatever i do wrong,it goes back to our relationship even if its not related.
if this continues,i'll just have to forget about you.
erase every thoughts and memories.
easier said than done.
but,i fear the worst is yet to come.
it will come to me in a bloody broken dream.
and when it happens,i'll say goodbye before you do.

we got sssttuufffsss =)

vans mens old skool skate =)




woke up at 12pm today.
guess what?i dun feel lyk gg down.
but then again,i miss my family yo!

soo went down 718.
for the first tym,i was first to reach sio!cool!LOL
mad nor n nas came,
n then e rest came.

did this,did that.
boring uh.

went arnd.
phin got nike shoes,
loloq got everlast slippers,
i got havanas original white!oh yea,n i got this slipper brand ripples.
aleaf told me its a girl's brand.what the heck,i can let my sis wear it!

i was actually looking for vans shoes or vans slippers.but got non =(
came back,went to 708 to slack.
too boring.went to the park nearby to slack.
went home at abt 9.20pm
reached home,showered,blogged!

nth much happen tdy yall.
damn it!anyone with vans slippers?please donate me!teehee~
looking for vans which has a mixture of colors =)

saturday:

mo woke me up at 9am.shyt!,late again!

gg sentosa,thats why had to wake up early.

prepared n stuffs.off to loloqs house.

im supposed to reach his house at exactly 9,but reached thr at 9.25.teehee¬

prepared the food.nuggets n fries.

later on,shamir came.

had breakfast,thn off to 535 to buy cigg.

along the way,met mad nor n khai.

they waited at pondok while we went to 535.

came back,took our stuffs from loloq's house,went down to wait for the rest.

bella came,aleaf came,farhan came.so we're all set.

took 65 to harbourfront.i swear the bus ride sux,my butt's melting in the bus!

2 hrs in the bus,thn finally we reached.met phin at interchange.

took the bus to sentosa.dropped at some beach in sentosa that im not sure of.

its been a long tym since i went to the beach to swim.

played a game whe ur parner climbs onto ur shoulder,thn fight with the other team.

whoever falls first,loose.

so yea,we kecoh lyk hell sia!LOL

laid on the beach with khai,mad nor,loloq n aleaf.

played with sand n stuffs.

thn it started to rain,soo we quickly got our stuffs n moved to e nearest shelter.

changed,thn went to vivo to have a look arnd.

snapped photos n stuffs.

slacked thr till 9pm.phin went off ealier.

so went off at 9 plus.took 10 to east coast.

sat at east coast mac.aleaf n mad nor went home.

so me,farhan,bella n khai were left to ton.

its not exactly ton for me.coz i slept for 3 hrs plus.hee¬

bella slept too.

woke up at 5am plus,slacked till 8am,went home.

tiring sia!even though i had some sleep,i still feel tired.

went home,slept till 2pm,sunday.

sunday:

nth much happen,went down after ton on sat at 3pm.

slacked.had a sudden crave for durian.all of us did.heheh

so at arnd 7pm,went to bedok inter with xenia,aleaf n farhan.

xenia treat us eat durian.LOL.thnx yo!

went to 138 area thr buy bubble tea.

sent xenia to bustop near the stadium.thn went home.

reached home at 9.20pm.

nth to do sia at home.watched incredible tales.

not scary lor.kindaf funny actually.

at arnd 11 plus,xenia called.

talked abt stuffs.

she don't let me sleep!hahah.

so talked till 12 plus midnight.then...ZzzzZz.

these posts are THOUGHTS,not judgement.don't get the wrong idea.
(in every post,i must state the above,coz some ppl just wont understand.they might think im judging them when im not)

lets start with:

woke up,body crap.shyt man!

went bedok inter to top up card.

went down,slacked,went home.

plans for tomorow:
FAMILY outing.

dunno go whe.i dowan certain ppl to know.

paranoia,that's the word that fits this situation.

these posts are THOUGHTS,not judgement.dont get the wrong idea.

what?heard news im in trouble.

what?didn't you said "da sua" when phin asked you?

what?you looking for me?for what?i didn't do anything.

AND I DIDNT WRITE ABT YOU GUYS IN ANY OF MY POSTS K?

I DIDNT CALL YALL DRUG ADDICTS.UNDERSTAND??

i'd lyk to elaborate.but im afraid if you guys misunderstood,again.
guess i gta get a new adress.i dowan much misunderstandings that could put my life in danger.

slack sio

nothing to blog abt guys.to certain ppl,dun anyhow judge what i write here k?
their juz THOUGHTS,not JUDGEMENT.

soo slack and blah blah,
went home at 6.30pm,shower n stuffs
prepare for workout with farhan,aleaf n phin.
went back down to resv at 8pm.
met aleaf and phin.

stretched,work out.
farhan was late,so we went jogging without him.

jogged for a whole 3km.
it was more of sprinting sio..
aleaf was the first to sprint.
so we thought he was showing off.teehee¬
soo me n phin catched up soon enuff.


chilled for awhile,thn went back home.reached home at abt 10.50pm.
argh!cant sleep till now.lyk shyt sia..


again to certain ppl,these posts are juz THOUGHTS,not JUDGEMENT k?
dun get the wrong idea.

a great experience

ok,today was really fun sio!

at first,met khai at SK,dn waited for the rest to come.

while waiting,jesslyn came with her fren.

chit chat awhile n stuff.

her fren's name is jiahao.he's real friendly n kind.

in a few minutes,shamir came,thn aleaf.

blablablah

21-ed to downtown.

checked out e-hub.its very boring there sio...

since we still have alot of tym,we walked arnd.

went to mac eat.thn,at 5pm,shamir had to go meet his fren at bedok south.

he'll rejoin us later.

walked to whitesand.

went to the library.read books n stuffs(i can't believe im actually reading sio!)

LOL.

shamir thn came,we went to pasir ris park.

saw horses along the way.

we stayed at their big playgroun for awhile.

khai challenged me n aleaf.the first to finish the obstacles win.

soo we started...in the end,khai won.coz he has monkey arms n feet i guess.hee¬

win aso win nothing.HAHA

went through it one more tym.this tym i was first.heheh

but ended up with scratch marks on my elbow n hands.SHYT!PAIN SIO!

tired,we decided to chill by the beach.

it was relaxing.

watching the sun sets n stuffs.

the ocean looks lyk a thousand diamonds,strewn across a blue plank.

we had serious talk n stuffs.it was all cool.

at 8 plus,sham n khai went off.leaving me,aleaf n farhan.

went back to downtown,went to mac.

eat n slacked.played card games.

i lost twice only la sey!my lucky day!

went off at 11.20pm,21-ed back home.

in the bus,we fooled arnd n stuffs.

aleaf wore his boxers on his head.we laughed our ass off!

such an entertainer!

also,saw farhan's old friend.pretty sio!hee¬

dropped off with aleaf,thn went our separate ways back home.

btw,decided not to join iran at marina,coz i heard their gg do some shytstuff thr.

dunno whether its true or not.haiz..

well,thats about it.tc yaaaaalll!

busy day

juz woke up.roughly at abt 12pm.
plans for today:

meeting phin n loloq.gg pasir ris to go see the maze n stuffs.check out downtown east too.
maybe sham joining us too.

after that,gg esplanade to meet iran at 7pm.
slacking there.


hope everything would turn out okay.

boring sio

woke up at 1pm,soo early rite??whalau.
so early in the morning already,got altogether 17 missed calls.
whoa~
12 calls from ain,
2 from some agency called kelly services.
2 from a private no...i think its fey.
3 from ruyu.


soo,usually ruyu wouldn't call me up in the morning at all.
soo called her back,asking why.
she said she has some problems n stuffs and need some advise in what to do.
soo,simple,i told to go straight home n not deal with the problem outside school.
thn,bye.

didn't call ain coz lazy.hee~
coz i noe it would be a long convo.i mean,hey,i juz woke up.
definitely not in the mood to talk alot what.


soo bla bla,went down resv.
slacked at 706.till idk what tym.arnd 6 plus i think.
went to coffeshop with raiswan to eat,den off to SK.
nobody there aso.soo met iran,fro n katek.
they were laptop-ing.surf friendster n stuffs.
later on,the laptop's batt was getting low.
soo we searched SK area for a plug.finally,found it.

while they we're laptop-ing,i went to find waihai.boring mah,what to do?joke arnd lor!
soo i joked arnd with waihai n dorothy.until we fro decided to crash at iran's place.
soo yea,i followed to.
slacked at iran house till 10.40pm,dn went home.

otw home,i have a feeling my dad's gna lecture me for no reason,n i was right.
he looked at me n commented on my clothings.
he asked why my pants got a slight tear at the botttom,
soo i said its called boot-cut jeans,aiite?
dn comment on my bag,saying thr's stupid drawings.
okay first of all,its not stupid...secondly,its called design,not drawings.
den he said why do i bring along the camera when i go out.
HEELLLOO??i lyk taking pictures??n it aint any picture,
its what i find interesting k??stop judging me.
thats what you always do when ur "bored" i guess.
im not 7,im 17.u gta let me live,not by my own,by giving some respect.
i've always respected you.
i dun mind if u give me curfews n stuffs,as long as you
respect my decision in taking up photography.
i noe u'll say that u noe what's best for me,but please,gta lemme try.
lyk the last tym,i wanted to take up judo,u didnt let me try.
i wanted to take up mountain biking,u pulled my hopes down.
i wanted to take up ravedancing,u objected.at tis point,i cant take it.
so father,i've finally decided.not up to you,but me.u will say its not important.
education is more than tis u say.
i agree,ur rite.but its not lyk im gg to do all tis full-time rite??
n hey,my education's alright.thnx to your advise n stuffs.
but still,i want more thn education you see.
tis is the biggest interest i ever had in my entire life.nothing's gna stop me.
im sorry if you ever came across ur son's blog.

remember those days?

went off to resv at 3 plus.
slack there.nth much happen really.


went home at abt 8pm coz boring.
went home n stuffs.

had a lil talk with xenia.
she told me stuffs.
i noe i am suppose to be mad,but i chose not to.

i've decided that i can't order,but only advise.
soo we talk till idk what tym.late i think.
went online,nobody online aso.except for xenia.
soo chatted awhile,read her blog.she apologised n stuffs.

ask whether i could meet her later on.
coz i need to ask something.
besides,the only ppl that care abt her is me n sabby.honest.
idk bt the rest.they seem unconcerned.


i have a feeling,a bad one.
i feel that someone's gonna stab me in back.
if it happens,idk what to say now.
i must prepare myself.emotionally i mean.
that backstabber wouldnt be any concern of mine,but her words will.
so will her promises.
all i hope for is she would stick to whatever she said to me.

culture?

soo,woke up 12pm.
shyt,its youth day n half of the day is gone.


had plans today.
changed n went to SK to find e rest.
reached thr,only waihai n jeremy was thr.while waiting for alif's call,i slacked n joked arnd.
got news from acin that they at 706 area,went thr.
sherry,syamir,acin n phin we're playing cards.


later on,loloq,farid n amirul joined.
finally,alif called.what a relief,i thot he hadn't woke up yet.
so he reached 706 at arnd 3.45pm.


slacked,waited for iran to msg to meet up at.
at last,katek called n say meet em at esplanade rooftop.
arnd 5pm,went to marina.
took 196 from bedok inter.
along the way,farhan,afro,iran n katek board the bus.
its made easier that way.
thn we wouldn't have to waste time n money if were to meet at esplanade.

soo walked arnd first,went to toilet.
then thr's this group of guys came to ask farhan whether he's into culture n stuffs.
he juz said no,n that he never plans to.

some crap shit la,whats with culture n gangs?dun lyk ea other?
a lil advise for gangsters n culturers,get urself some weapons,find an open space where no ppl
arnd,thn u can dislike ea other all you want.dun shame urself infront of other civilians.
not only will ppl see u guys cut ea other brains out,but ey will also look at ur background.
such as family,loved ones,friends n how ur nurtured by them.
so please,tis is good advise,heed it.

went off at abt 9.45pm,went straight home.








xenia:

you want things to go back to normal?
want the old days again?
well,what is you meaning of those olden days?
is it those days where u smack my forehead n i'll smack urs?
those days whe u would call me late nights n talk?
or is it those days where i would care abt you soo much but u still cause troubles?
which one is it?






_____end of culture transmission____

no,it shudnt be.

whatella?today was soo fcuk up boring to the max sia!
seriously nth at all.everybody's not here.no one is.
waited awhile,saw fey.thn farhan.katek came.but fey went home.
soo its onli 3.its soo darn boring i tell you.ARGGH!


its the same as being at home.might as well.
okay went home,blablalblalblah

went online,blahblablalbalbabla.
no mood to talk.settled a few things online.
oh shit,khai's coming back?fcuk that.


(NC-16)
(EXCUSE ME FOR MY OH-SO-AWFUL LANG,IM NOT USUALLY LYK THIS)
after he nearly busted ruyu,coming back?
khai's coming,im leaving.
wait,i slack here longer than he ever did!
i bet his grandma can't beat my record!
i've was already here when ur still sucking on ur mom's nippies dude.
i swear its true.
dude,ur juz kid.stop acting all grown up.ur barely 14.
even macdonald's wouldn't wanna hire you.
they wouldnt wanna hire you as a cleaner neither.coz you suck!
ppl look at you thinking ur handsome.but ey dunno whats ur attitude lyk rite??
ey dunno how u behave infront girls rite??
ey dunno what u crave for rite??
i know what u crave for.n thats pussy.u've been looking for one,ever since that incident
that occured at 710.u broke ur useless V to a friendly neighbourhood slut!
ever since,u've been trying to get one nice pussy.thats right,ima bring out whatever secrets u hav bastard!
soo lets see...hmm..
u've tried to get fatin's,aminah's,fareha's,xenia's,nana's n now ruyu's?(dun u guys know??he juz wanna use u guys.honest)

haha,i bet u only got the first two.n they smell too.juz lyk ur mom's when i laid her.
if ur craving soo much,why dun u get urself an old lady,who doesnt mind an asshole lyk u,fcuking up her asshole??!!
dude,stand naked infront of the mirror n look at urself....u'll notice one thing...
ur cock fits a straw hole bitch!
and ur balls the size of marble!

(apologies for any names mentioned above,tis is juz to humiliate that asshole!)

soo now what sexmaniac??whose next???!!
dirty lil punkass!


anyone who i advised nt to go near him,all got fcuked upside down.
lucky for you ruyu,u didn't.juz follow my advise.
u wanna follow a sexmaniac's path?
or would u rather take my path,my safe n dun-need-to-worry path?

i know one of the names mentioned abv still on that route.
what to do?only advise.
to whoever's on that pathway,CARRY A BOX OF CONDOM!~





btw,*_ _ _ _ _ _* doesnt stands for nabila.ok sabby?LOL



___end of transmission___

ur average kinda guy.

woke up at 12.15pm.omigosh!im late siol!
tis is the second tym ima late to meet ain.

waited for the bus.while waiting,i saw afiqah n gang.
gosh,she's sweet.
hopes she doesn't read my blog.hee~

soo took 66,went to 110.looked for her,found her.
she gave me that "im so not in the mood coz ur late" type of face.
whatehella i care.i feel our relationship is falling apart.
today.the whole tym when i was with her,it was as if i was juz a friend.
okay,tats fine with me.soo an incident happen today.
while browsing through her phone,a msg came.dunno from who.
respecting her privacy,i gave back her phone saying thr's a msg.

she snacthed it from my hand,read it,n covered the msg.
i was lyk..what the hell?

when asked who was it,she looked at a friend,sortaf gave her a wink,turned to me n say its her friends bf.

soo i kept quite.i turned away,but i was eyeing them,they whispered to one another.
n each tym they whispered,they looked at me.

okay,c'mon.is she keeping another guy from me???
coz juz a few days ago,i saw her with this other guy.that guy was carrying her bag n walking too close to her.
i chose to ignore thinking maybe its her bro or sumthing.but these few days,my thoughts have changed..
i purposely ignored her msgs,calls.she once said to me thru a msg saying that i don't love her aynm.n that im nt lyk last tym.she even thot i was cheating on her.
what the hella fcuker dog??
i dun cheat on girls.besides,its not me,its you.
ur the one probably cheating on me.i swear if she is,ima immediately end tis relationship.
no buts,no regrets,no apologies.


lately,ive started to have thoughts abt tis special someone.
whenever i see her,my heart skipped a beat.
her looks,attitude,one word,awesome.
the way she smiles,makes me feel that ive been holding back.
her sweet gestures,makes think that i've made the wrong move by being in a relationship with another.
she's cute
she's funny
she's sweet
she's more than that,
she's _ _ _ _ _ _*


oops,can't say.i nearly wrote her name down.got carried away by expressing her here.
she's more to what ive wrote down here.


okay,soo its 1.15am.gta get some rest.gg marina tmrw.
tonning there.gg to have fun n stuffs.cant wait sia!

dear resv ppl,

We all have a weakness,
But some of ours are easy to identify. Look me in the eye,and ask for forgiveness.
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again.Yes, you are my friend.
We all have something that digs at us,at least we dig each other.
So when weakness turns my ego up,
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday.If I turn into another,
dig me up from under what is covering,the better part of me.
Sing this song,remind me that we'll always have each other,
when everything else is gone.
We all have a sickness
that cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how we try.We all have someone that digs at us,at least we dig each other.
So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.
If I turn into another,dig me up from under what is covering,The better part of me
.Sing this song!Remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.

i wanna turn back tym.

so went off to yew tee with iran.
met ira n slacked till at abt 5 plus.

alot of funny things happen.
but seriously,the place thr is awesome.so unlike bedok resv.
its quite,peaceful.n rarely see public servants.
the police i meant.

actually planned to go back resv.but both of us sort of no mood to go thr.
coz ey don't wanna see us.its okay.
soo we went to IMM to hav a look arnd.alot of ppl kindaf stare at us.
probably becoz they know we're not from here.tis is the westside.
we're eastern beings.soo..yea.juz an observation.

along the way met saiful.its been long since we saw hym.
he's alot taller...or maybe im alot shorter.hee~

soo ate at Mac,walked arnd.went back to resv at abt 8pm.
thr,i slacked till 9 plus.went home.

right now blogging n friendstering.what i said in my friendster is all true.
if you think otherwise,feel free to tell me.i'll change it.

resv ppl are officially falling apart.

resv ppl are falling apart.n its all becoz of me n iran's decision.

to all resv ppl:

maybe its best if you guys juz slack together.
w/o me n iran would be better off.
soo plz,get back together.bring him along if you want.
if he's thr,dn i'll come down n find iran.we'll slack somewhere else.
my only wish is to see you guys be happy again.hav fun guys.
maybe in the future our paths would cross once more.i can only pray for that day.