tears of ashes

alright,nothing much happen.

woke up,went down,slacked,jogged,onlined,friendstered,blogged.
boring sio...

think i need to find time for pictures.
think i need to find something different other than slacking.
think i need to work.but sadly,have to wait till end of year.
think i need to ignore someone in my life coz she's bugging me even though she has that special status in my life.im sry to say this.






dear special someone,
can you be a lil bit understanding instead of being a control freak?
coz i need space.
your always assuming that i don't love you like i use to.
i know you treasure all my msgs.i do too.
even a simple "good morning dear" means alot to you,i know.
but you see,i'm not using bill.i'm a prepaid user.
sometimes,i'm out of prepaid.so,i can't msg you.
a day without my msg,you think i don't love you no more.
c'mon,even if you don't msg or call me,i dun think that.
so lets be grateful that we're together.
be grateful that you have a place in my heart.
as you know,i rarely keep people in my thoughts.
what i simply mean is,your loved.
i'm thankful to have you.
i know i don't show much of it.
to be honest,i don't know how to.
i've shed my tears for you.you don't know right?
your right,sometimes i can't be bothered to answer your calls.
its becoz i wasn't in the mood to talk.becoz i need time for myself.
time to reflect and such.
if i don't answer your call,don't go complaining to your frens about me.
later,one by one will call and ask what's wrong.
that will only anger me.
when angry,i won't say or do anything.
when i don't say or do anything,you get upset.
saying i don't treat you right.*sigh*
you see,whatever i do wrong,it goes back to our relationship even if its not related.
if this continues,i'll just have to forget about you.
erase every thoughts and memories.
easier said than done.
but,i fear the worst is yet to come.
it will come to me in a bloody broken dream.
and when it happens,i'll say goodbye before you do.