falling for you way too deep =)

woke up,showered and stuffs.

went down to slack at 718 at arnd 2pm.

met nas and mad nor.

shortly after,i went to playground to meet loloq.

thn baby called say she finish her cwo!

which means she's coming!

spend time tgt.

something emotional happened amngst most of us.

i dun wish to elaborate the part abt what happen between me n baby.

coz ey're private!

but,i suddenly realised,my frens we're always thr when i need to express myself.

they helped me alot.i've not done my best for you guys.

you guys gave me solutions to my problems.

i 'salam' the guys,telling them ey're the ones i couldn't live w/o.

it was soo emotional when it came to aaacin.

after i 'salam' him,he ask me to follow him to a corner.

we hugged and his first words were "if you need anything,you know i'll be there for you,no matter what"

i didn't know why i suddenly shed my tears.he did the same too.

i mean,c'mon,we've been brothers for 3 whole years.of coz its normal to cry for your own brother.

farhan said the same thing to me too.

soo we hugged.

did e same for loloq,phin n aleaf.

if i we're to describe how much you guys mean to me,a hundred stacks of thick foolscap paper wouldn't be enough.

we're truly are a family.and i hope we will stay this way forever.

coz i've never cried for brothers before in my entire 17yr life.

baby,

im real sorry i couldnt call you up.

i know u say its fine,but i feel upset =(

coz i couldn't be there for you =(

its abt my dad.

he doesn't support me having a girl.

all he wants is to discriminate me.

all he wants is to humiliate me.

i dun give a fcuk.all i gta do is hold on patiently till im older.

probably i'll get alil more freedom.

dad,whatever i do now,is what you did when ur my age.

but im not stupid enuff to do it for long.

at least i know what i'm doing.

at least i didn't drag me teenage yrs till im 24.

unlyk you dad.

i appreciate all the things you've done for me.yes i do.

but i just don't like you.

maybe its becoz of that horrible incident that took place when i was younger?

whatever the cause,i don't think i can behave myself.

the more you control me,the more imma rebel.

im not gna give up till you loose.

im not a bad kid,im just sick an tired of your ego.

i admit,i'm alil ego too,

two ego's cant stay in one apartment.

i tested you,i got beat.

lets see if you test me.

i dun think i'll call you my dad anym if you do so.