mount faber!

SUNDAY,

feeling fresh.

feeling hyper.

we going to see the meetup at vivo skypark today @ 1pm

met up with loloq at 08.

but fey was a lil late.

so we mrt-ed to vivo.

roughly about 40 mins.

when we arrive,we saw a group of guys wearing the same tee's.

obviously their here for the same reason.

the first thing that caught our attenion was ppl wearing anime costumes.

i was lyk,whatever the heck??

i found that there's a cosplay thingy going on at skypark,

went to have a look.

actually wanted to take photos with them as they look exactly the same as the cartoon characters!

but,nah...

their very **** btw,hahaha.

the ***** are super ***!

teehee~

after that,searched for shufflers.

a few showed up.

so obviously it hasn't started.

went to long john to eat.

then topman.

bought accessories.

walk and walk and walk.

decided to go mount faber since nothing better to do.

climb mount faber,

took idk how many flights of freaking steps!

finally we reached.

wanna know something?at the top,we saw a bus dropping off passengers.

whatever the hell???!!!

i didn't know there's bus service here!

you mean to say we climbed freaking steps,only to find out later that there's bus service???

fcuk it mother fcuker!~~~~~~~

chilled at a nearby shelter,

photos captured,

smoked,dranked and stuffs.

it was all good.

till we decided to go off.

we walked instead of taking the bus as it takes ages to reach.

walked down this hill,kinda steep.

talked and stuffs,

reached harbourfront mrt.

then i was off to tampines while the other two went home.

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BABY,

do you know i miss you?

when are you coming back into my arms again?

still MIA-ing?

its bothering me uhs.

you don't know what happen today at vivo,

i sort of missed my chance?

you were in my mind.

at that moment,i pulled myself away,coz i didn't want to hurt you.

coz i love you.

feeling depressed at the moment.

@white sands~

saturday:



woke up feeling fresh.
no more lethargic-ness.
went to white sand's.
went to renew my ez-link.
ate at mac,
after that the rest went to pierce their nose.
me and phin were staring at them in agony and pain.LOL
i dun undsterstand piercings.
i mean,doesnt it hurt?
well,different ppl have different feelings.



soon,went to buy donut at donut empire.
i prefer the donut factory at suntec.donuts there are awesome!
went to downtown to have a look at e-hub.
it was alright there.
cam-whored and stuffs.
but the most exciting part of the day for me was when they did piercings.
i don't know why myself.haha!
after downtown it was geylang for me while the rest headed home.
had dinner with family,
then,home sweet home~

lethargic.teachers day~

feeling lethargic today.
didnt know the reason.
so later on meeting sabby,xenia and phin.
gg to downtown to slack.
plus,i have to renew my ez-link.
this is like my hundredth time im doing this.
fcuking cheap materials.
huh,
we did some shitty stuffs today.
hey,its teachers day,its time to greet our past mentors.
firstly,went in bedok west primary.
all of us were wearing home clothes.
damn,not allowed to go in.
but what do we care?
planned to break in actually.teehee~
xenia gave us a better idea.
why not wear uniform,and then enter one by one?
haha,
lucky phin was wearing his ITE uniform.
so we took turns wearing 'em.
at last,we're in!
fooled around.
after that,went to damai primay,which was bedok west's neighbour.
caused shit!
went around greeting teachers i nvr met before.
but hey,whats teacher's day for if your not gonna greet them with a huge smile?
had loads of laughs.
ending here,coz im tired and stuffs.
baby,im here wishing you good luck for your exams =)
much love and misses babe!

a joyous day

joyous,the word to describe the day.

started off with slacking at 08.

farhan and mad nor was there.

we talked about yesterday's incident.

the was more than meets the eye.

i found out something,but can't say it out.

i didn't know phin could act!

thanks phin.if it wasn't for you,we'd all be caught.

you save us from futher troubles.

moving on,

decided to go to parkway parade.

waited for khai as he wanted to buy stuffs there.

after quite a long wait,he showed up.

15-ed to marine parade.

walked around,khai bought topman's baseball t-shirts.

argh!my heart ached as we entered the shop.

it really bothers me that when i have money,everythings expensive.

when i don't,suddenly everything went cheap!

fcuk it!

nevermind,i'll just wait for money to come from sister.

guaranteed,topman.

but parkway doesn't have much variety.

have to look around at vivo.

topman outlet there is huge!

maybe i'll look around at marina too.

one of my favourite outlet for quality clothings so far.

wondered around,

15-ed to tampines mall,

barbel shop,the blues.

after that went to toys'r'us.

fooled around with loloq,it was fun!

lol,its been a long time since i last step in.

shitty stuffs,

came out with free gifts.

i didn't bother to do so.

what for?i don't play with toys no more.

even though if free,my decision's final.

teehee~

honestly,the reason i was happy coz baby msged me.

i love 'em as much as i love her.

in the morning,i was feeling moody.i knew how i was gonna behave during the day.

i thought to myself,most to most,i'd be quite,won't be as talkative as usual.

i won't joke as much.

won't fool around much either.

but it all changed after i sorted things out with her.

she's not angry at me as she understands why my actions are so.

and i understand why she doesn't reply my msgs.

overall,im feeling good.

we went through it without any arguments.

unlike last time.

we have less conflicts now.

sweety,im glad.

im glad that we're together.

i've never been happier =D

i'll stay faithful to you,believe me.

loveyou~missyou sayang =)

"friend friend only what..."

god damn it,close call at bedok town park.

sitting down,singing to pearl jam's song.

forgot the title,a very sweet song about his girl who died in a car crash.

suddenly,shit comes.

man,we shudn't have done it.

panicked,afraid,both at the same time.

it was pure adrenaline.

opened the door,dashed out like mad mens.

sprinted across the park with aleaf leading.

i overtook khai,

loloq followed suit.

phin,well..hope he's okay.

his damn bike made it hard for him,not us.

but the pressure,definitely on.

went separate ways.

farhan and khai went to bedok north,while me and the rest of the crew head home.

there was no other place to hide.

this is our big mistake.

argh!hope everything turns out okay for phin.

you readers probably dun understand this.actually,i didnt want to elaborate on it.

but,i did.even though is not understandable.

empty thoughts now.

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fionalim,

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baby,don't get the wrong idea.

i only add those girls on friendster for friends.

its exactly why they call it friendster.it's to make friends only.

no more than that.

trust me baby.

would i two time you?after all that i went through for you?

and after what you went through for me?

i remember honey.

like i said before,im not your ordinary kind of guy.

my life is damned,

honestly,im sick and tired of everything.
woke up early in the morning just to msg baby good morning,
and guess what?till now,she hasn't replied.
nvm.
i shall give in.
thats not the problem.
the real problem is my dad.






dad,why do you have to dig out the past?
you youself know your doing it,yet you continue.
we all hate the past,esp me.
so having a family talk right now.
more like family screaming.
saying music caused my downfall?
maybe it is?
i doubt so.it only causes part of my downfall i guess.
the rest,its me.im clueless,im blank.
all i have to do now is serve the nation for 2 yrs and after that,gotta plan for the future.
i hate growing old,i wish i was 15 or something,
but i have to accept the things in life.
im totally out of words,
fallling asleep as we speak.
if theres anyway to switch lives,i'd be proud to change mine.
i know you readers may think i don't love my family,
but your wrong,i love them..thats the exact reason i wanna switch lives,
they deserve a much better son than me,
im just another failure.
and i doubt i can win their trust back =(

research?

ok guys get this,
i actually went to the library to do research on aids.
its been ages since i step foot inside the library for research.
usually,i'd just switch on the computer and start pressing keys.
but nah,this tym,imma get my lazy ass up actually look for books.



went to bedok library with phin at arnd 2plus.
searched for those damn books for about an hour.
check this out,the number of aids infected people in south-east asia surpassed
the africans by 2000.
can you believe it??
i thought africa has the most no. of HIV infected humans!
they even held "miss HIV" instead of a beauty pageant or something.
so i guess we asians really loves having unsafe sex.
STOP EVIL PEOPLE,AND USE CONDOMS,PRACTICE SAFE SEX MORONS!
IF YOUR BROKE,PLASTIC BAGS WILL DO.GEEZ!





moving on,went to resv at arnd 4 plus as baby said she's meeting me.
in the end,i had to rescue her at the sidewalk near the factories.
bby,thnx for walking 7 bustops just to meet me.
i really appreciate it =)
even though it was less thn an hour,i treasure it as if they were diamonds.
6.50pm,went home.
nothing much exciting happen.
just the part where i meet baby =D
she never fails to put a smile on my face.

sweetstuffs back!

oh babe,finally.
past few days were mundane.
same old thing ya know.
but i am a happy man.
coz my sweetstuffs back!YEAH!
after a long wait,it finally paid off.
well thats just one thing that im happy about.






i pity those who lost their love ones.
what i meant was loosing your boy/girl.
not as in their dead or something.
i know how they feel,coz i felt it before.
but i pity xenia the most,
sis,if your reading this,plz forgive me.
lemme tell you a thing or two about this case.
im gna change the names in this of course.


this guy,adam,doesnt love this girl,alice.
alice is crazy in love with adam,just becoz he's handsome.
adam is a playboy while alice is a goodgirl.
adam went steady with alice becoz adam has no girl to turn to.
this adam guy,he is sort of sick in the mind.
he's the flirtatious type.he will flirt with more than 2 girls.
make them fall for him,thats when he starts choosing who to go with.
after choosing,he will try to use her.
if he fails,he will break up,and fall back to the other girls he has flirt with.
that way,he wont be single for long.
he also is the type that loves to show off.
when asked whether he's single or not,he will never say single,but attached.
he would even lie to his own friends for a hit.
but everybody knows he's just a stuck up.



back to the story,adam and alice,together.
theres another person involved in this.
a girl named lisa.
before,adam has flirt with lisa but didnt went steady.
he just left a mark in lisa's heart so that she wont forget him.
till now,lisa hasn't.
adam thn broke alice's heart.making her feel she's the one at fault for their break-up.
when actually,it was adam's.
adam realised he's now single..
his friends know it,
since his job is to show off,he fell back to lisa.
asking her whether she's single or not.
adam even lied to a friend of his saying he's attached to lisa.
when actually they're not.
he just wants his friends to look up to him.
i dunno what he wants from his friends,
whatever it is,its not gonna happen
no one looks up to a playboy.
who does?





what i have written here is a very close writeout on what is happening to my friends and i.
i dun need pity from anyone by writing this.
i just wanna say it out.
get it off my chest yea?
if you guys got any suggestions on how to teach this "adam" a lesson,do tell.
if can,i want it to be as painful as possible.

message to get it in your head.

heyhoo¬

life's getting bored.

everythings getting lame.

sweetsounds of "sichi rei hachi" is fading.

even music's a failure to me.

what i simply mean is,not even music can cheer me up.

sure i may laugh,joke and whatever not.

but i myself realise im not being myself.

putting on a fake smile?sort of.

of course im happy to see my peeps.

somethings missing in my life.

or should i say someone.

god damn it.

feeling empty.

nothing much to look forward to,unlike last time.

here's what i think,

everybody tries to put their love on the line,

everybody fears a broken heart sometimes,

but even when scared,you have to try to fly,

sometimes you may fall,but we've seen it done before.

who knows what come may?

nobody knows the outcome,no one can predict it.

all i have to say is,

when there's a will,there sure is a way.

stop evil people and end your beliefs.

green to black by Rebelution.
guys shud listen to it.
awesome song!
even though its about greens,
the beat,tuning and the message in between,are cool.







hmmm
lemme start with the exciting part of the day.
went to loloqs house,imesh-ed and stuffs.
real fun coz we joked and laugh our ass of at this pic.
aleaf recorded our conversations.
it was damn funny!
laughters and vulgars thrown everywhere.
came down,slacked.
the rest of the day was mundane.
i know weekends are supposedly to be the most fun day of the week,
but i prefer weekdays.
that way,alot more ppl would be arnd.


so yeah,still waiting for an answer.

restless...

so its 2am in the morning.
im now restless.
i think im just afraid if i cant come down later on.
i have to!
its real important!
argh!
tiring myself by exercising,but to no avail.


wawawawawawa~~~
nothing to do,nothing to say.


soo...
wawawawawawawa~~~

forever mine.

took me long enough to complete this.
as you can see above and my background,its my first ever vector.
damn it looks ugly!
i spent 3 freaking days on it.
but,hey,its a start.
im sure i can try to do better next time =)







okay,while doing this post,i got a msg from someone telling me to come down for awhile.
said to be a give and say session.
i wondered...
soo i called in to ask.
ey say it was a letter from fiona.
so i tried my best to escape from my house as my dad's asleep.
you know,when dad's around,these walls around my house just gets thicker.
if you know what i mean.





without much further ado,raced down to 708.
read the letter,
i was deeply touched.
no one has ever left a mark in my heart except for her.
so i replied the letter,
in it,contains words from my heart.
its all true.i've never been happy without her by my side.
wrote down whatever feelings i had for her.
hope she understands,
that i can't forget her.
we had names.we made up ourselves.
such as woofwoof and meowmeow,
bitch and bastard.
they may sound simple,but the meaning in these words are complex.
they may sound insulting,but they're just our love words.
2 more days to her bday.
and i will ask her something,
something i shud have done a long time ago,
what i will ask is a present from me to she,
i feel lyk saying it out right now...
but i won't.
coz i wanna make it special.





i know i 've hurt you,
and you've hurt me.
but i forgave you,a long time ago.
i wish to start afresh.
with you by my side.
your the one i know,
that will always be in my heart.
iloveyou¬imissyou.
wish you'd feel the same.

22nd sept,1330hrs.pest B please!

lets blog.















nothing to blog actually.
havent been coming down often.
sorry if i let ya guys down ay?
i've been busy doing stuffs.
and again,sorry if im not sharing whatever im doing now.
many ppl mistook me for being xenia's boyfriend.
HELLO!she's my sister la.
whe'd you guys get all this ridiculous news anyway??
haiyooo¬













alright,at this point,i've nothing much to say.
maybe tmrw im gg to mad nor's chalet to celebrate his b'day.
i get the feeling that its gonna get cancelled.
just a thought.

promises

i remember my first promise i made to you.
and that is,never to bully you for eternity.
i broke it,but you gave me the chance to regain my promise.
i shall hold it this time,just becoz you mean alot to me.
idk bout you,but how i wish we could be back tgt again.
*sigh*







my second promise to you was to treat you better,
i failed in fulfilling this,
i hurt you alot.
im willing to fix you,
even if it requires me to go to the ends of the universe.
coz for you,i will.
i'll master every amount of confidence i have,
if its for you,its worth it.
seriously.

be careful what you wish for,

ima get straight to the point.
you said i will regret,for sure.
didnt think i will.
cause now i know why you said that.
i apologise for any inconvenience caused.
insults and stuffs,it was all out of anger.
guess im sensitive.
i say before i think.
and now,i regret.
very,very badly.
i blew it.
you were right all this time.
i was the one who was paranoid.
i was the one who didn't think this will happen.
i was...no,i am the one to blame.
i know i've said you blamed me,i accused you.
now i know,it was my fault all along.
god damn it.
damn regrets,i cant forget,
forget about this thing ever happen.
i blew our romance away,just like that.
i know your not gna forgive me.
i have to live with that.
i have to live with the thought...
you hate me,
and i now know the reason.
truth,i hate myself right now too.
i shud have known that it was true...
i shud have known...you were saying facts.




i pledge to learn hard,
built myself a time machine,
get everything right again.
you may object,you may not want things be back to the way it was.

whatever the heck??

wanna knw why i write these things in my blog?
coz you hurt my feelings.
simple.
so why you looking for me?
why you even reading my blog?
i thot you hate me?
idk uh..
whatever the heck is,
your the first to hurt me.
i admit..
the word whore is too insulting.
i want to say sorry aso...idk.
feels like lifting a heavy weight.
but...
argh!









i have my own problems now.
a school to look for,
a new meaning in life since i lost mine,030808
a...hair to grow back!
im botak sia!
GOD DAMN IT!!

sad days ahead

well,alot of things happen.
guess the family tree is getting smaller and smaller.
i dun knw what to say.
i have to deal with my own problems.
too many dilemma,too lilttle solutions.
but one thing i know,you shud never let someone hurt themselves.
if not so,its whether your heartless or mindless.
you nearly destroyed someones future,if you look ahead.
im not much of a visionary.
just that its logic.



about myself,im getting moody these few days.
i've lost someone near and dear to me.
all i hope for is a miracle.
i have nth else to say.
thats all folks,stay tuned to see me blog about my DULL life.
take cares!

im sorry.

met up with loloq n phin.

went to bugis at arnd 1pm.

walked pass bugis street.

nth interesting though.

long john's to eat.

after that,off to topman =)

not much variety there.

looked arnd,not many are my size.

decided to go marina to have a look.

i was looking for white and red tee's,

but no more xs =(

soo bought black and orange baseball.

loloq bought white-red baseball and orange-black.

actually wanted to buy their belt.

was confused between belt or scarf.

both same price,13 bucks only.

thn again,i still need to buy pants.

soo,forget it.i'd buy em next time.

at arnd 3 plus,went to east coast to slack.

quite okay la.

was about to enjoy when suddenly dad called and asked to go home immediately.

soo rushed home and guess what?

my dad's not home.

kns...

made me rush for no reason.haiyoo!

probably meetin baby tmrw =)

i miss her so much!

hopefully everything will turn out okay.

b,im sorry.

i've broken my promise in treating you better.

i now know when you say that you love me,you mean it.

i'm upset about myself.

how could i let my thoughts get in the way.

you were right when you say i'm thinking too much.

i've done too much damage to you.

im willing to mend things back even it costs my life.

i would go to the end for you.

fogive me baby,

iloveyou~imissyou.