my life is damned,

honestly,im sick and tired of everything.
woke up early in the morning just to msg baby good morning,
and guess what?till now,she hasn't replied.
nvm.
i shall give in.
thats not the problem.
the real problem is my dad.






dad,why do you have to dig out the past?
you youself know your doing it,yet you continue.
we all hate the past,esp me.
so having a family talk right now.
more like family screaming.
saying music caused my downfall?
maybe it is?
i doubt so.it only causes part of my downfall i guess.
the rest,its me.im clueless,im blank.
all i have to do now is serve the nation for 2 yrs and after that,gotta plan for the future.
i hate growing old,i wish i was 15 or something,
but i have to accept the things in life.
im totally out of words,
fallling asleep as we speak.
if theres anyway to switch lives,i'd be proud to change mine.
i know you readers may think i don't love my family,
but your wrong,i love them..thats the exact reason i wanna switch lives,
they deserve a much better son than me,
im just another failure.
and i doubt i can win their trust back =(