current track : Spoken Hearts - some local band.

current mood : regret,confused.

first of all,i'd like to apologise.

for whatever i've done and said to you.

i didn't mean it.

i realised,i love you so much.

i can't believe i actually shed tears for you.

looking back at all the things that happened,you gave me chances over and over again.

i'm lucky to have you,seriously.

i can't face the future wihout your guidance.

my chest suddenly felt heavy when i think about it.

who's gonna do this,who's gonna do that?

since i'm the only male child,i realised its up to me.

but i'm not ready,teach me.

i haven't learn my lessons yet.

such a stubborn a-hole i am.

now,i know.

i didn't live up to your expecations.

all you wanted me to have was just a simple life.

back then i thought simple life's hard.

i'm not the sporty ype,nor am i the geek of the century.

either way,i could have done better than what i've become now.

your like a psychic.you know exactly where and when its gonna happen.

you knew my mistakes,way before hand.

you knew what i was gonna become.

you gave your best,

but i've failed you time and time again.

i owe it all to you,i'll give you my all,

even if its gonna drive me up the wall.

i'm looking for a job for the meantime.

i need to kill time,seriously.

if not so,i'll be up to no good.

i know myself.

i'll try to stop,but i end up doing something even worst.

so yeah,i don't want to give anymore problems.

i had enough of life as a defiant.

maybe when i'm a lil old,

when i have money,

then i'll enjoy =D