aqueous transmission

remembering you...

remember this?
i use to edit this photo.
it has you right by me.
i still recall,it was my display pic on my old phone.
sudden thoughts of you came back tonight.
i don't even know why.
only god knows how i feel at the moment.
look at yourself in the mirror.
and tell yourself that your beautiful because its true.
look at how amazing you are..
i'm mesmerized,till now.
cupid got a bulls-eye.
i'm trying to pull out the arrow,bit by bit.
till she came along,
at first,i thought i could do it with a lil help.
but turns out,it's still stuck.
i realised even if she was mine,it's still there.
no one can replace you i guess.
your awesome on both sides.
why do i keep harping on the past?
questions only the wise can answer.
i can't get it myself.
memories are powerful rays.
strong enough to penetrate anything.
nothing that can be deviced will be able to withstand it.
hypocrite i am?big fat lyer you are.
we both have flaws.
i miss you dearly.
and i'm sorry for whatever that happened.
sorry's never enough,i know.
but that's just the way it has to be.
because you wouldn't wanna face me at all.

well,slacked at resv till late.

shortest post ever!

=D

current track : live your life - T.I feat rihanna

haven't been updating for awhile now

recently went to shamir's chalet =D

was so happy coz i get to meet the guys after a long break.

went to pasir ris park,fectched loy together with kinn and geik.

slack and came back to chalet.

geik was having headache so i put her to sleep.

went out to slack again.

after much,it was time to rest.

the boys,you know them,can't keep their mouth shut.LOL!

i was hushing kinn to sleep when suddenly i heard them singing.

at one corner,haziq,fey,farhan and nas were sitting,chanting "gyyymmm ccclllaaaasss hhheeerrrooeesss,rrraaddiioo kkillerrr....iiii llliikkeee gggiirllss..."

i was like,damn!

i'm trying to get some sleep for god sake!

it was chaotic yet fun =D

december 13th,saturday :

went to escape theme park with mir,sabby,bella,aleaf and acin.

haunted house then viking.

when it went down,me and acin were screaming our asses off!

exciting yet scary at the same time.

next,go-kart-ed.

acin got first place.while i got 5th place.

supposedly to be 6th,but i overtook sabby =)

went to meet the rest after that at resv.

slacked till about 11pm and was home after that.

=D

current track : unwell - matchbox twenty

ahhh,those short-haired days!

mount faber memories =)

nothing new today,accompanied dad to OCH for checkup.

it was boring.except for the part where there's lots of girls!

LOL

eyecandy i guess XD

went home and rot some more.

i hope i can make it to sham's chalet tmrw.

dear god,please?

you gave me your lips,the medicine to cure my pain.

current track : where we started - eyes set to kill

current mood : tired yet happy!

the pic was taken before i left the house to meet jonathan.

an old friend i met online.its been ages since i last met him.

the last time we met was like..half a year ago?

nvm.

met at cityhall,then off to the padang.

made new friends too!

we're quite a big group though.

found out that non of them knew each other.

they decided to just enlarge their circle of friends.more or less,like a fun group.

played a lil ice breaking game.

jonathan as the leader.ass,he appointed himself as leader!thickskin sia =P

got to know a few names and stuffs.

we basically spent hours knowing more about each other.

played the guessing game where you team up and guess what the other party is trying to tell you.

my partners were derrick,sheila,fabrianne and abng mus.

we were given the easiest of all.

told to act like a gangster.its soo simple lor.

overall,abng mus was the most sporting type.

friendly,caring and funny.he's 25 but he's like only an inch taller.

no offence uh!

i played ahlian's boyfriend,

fabrianne as ahlian,abng mus the head gangster and sheila the gangster's right hand man.

sheila had to tie up her hair and look like a boy,LOLS!

should have taken a photo of her.

while derrick as the passerby.

we pretend to be sitting at the void deck and create trouble to passerbys.

funny la derrick,

he fell to the right when actually he was kicked on the right shoulder =.="

the he said "ay,wrong move wrong move!"

he got up again fell to the left.

disqualified due to clever derrick's stupid line!

i mean,everybody knows your not suppose to say anything in a guessing game.haiyo!

had lunch at long johns,went home at about 5 plus.

i enjoyed every second of it =)

pillars in life

current track : bizzarre love triangle - Frente

back again to do another blog post!

i know,i know,you guys love it.

you enjoy every little thing i write in my blog XD.

i'm just kidding.

i know,if geikchang were to read this she will say "eeee,so thick skin,have you no shame?"

hey,at least i don't call myself humble okay? XD

humble people don't admit they are.right?i know i am =)

but just to say..i'm humble-r than you! -.-"

i've got an idea,lets talk about me shall we?heh.

i mean,it is my blog you know.

lets see..

went to auntie's house at simei.

slacked there till about 5pm or so?

watched son of the mask on tv too =)

the shows so cute!and the baby's sooooo adorable!

went to eastpoint to shop for awhile.

funny thing happened at starbucks.

you know my dad,he's the old fashion type.

no offence but i think he realises that.

i bought frap caramel.

since i have the extra cash,i wanted to buy him something.

he's a coffee lover,so i said "hey dad,want anything?my treat!"

then he replied "sure,i want one kopi-o!"

he didn't say,but shouts instead!

everybody were like looking at us as if we're some aliens from another planets or something.

i couldn't help but to laugh.

silly dad,such a joker!

well,at least i thought he was joking.

had a great time with family this past week.

never have i stayed home longer than 2 days!

guess i'm gonna get use to this.

like i've said before,

when i get a lil older,a lil wiser and have cash with me,then i'll enjoy =)

i'll fight,i'll keep you warm in the coolest of nights.

the simplest of all,i call it,soulbreaker.

why is it so?because its my creation and its up to me to name it =)

i'll start with this past friday.

went camping with family @ changi beach.

cousins tagged along too =DD

so excited.

cause this is the first time we went camping together =)

i learnt how to set up the tent and stuffs.

due to strong winds,our tent was about to fly off,seriously.

passerby's were like "first timers i see".

other tents were firm,our's was like a sissy.

nevertheless,we managed to get it back on track.

barbecued and stuffs,

ate alot sia..i've grown fatter due to that!

that night,i couldn't sleep.

sat down,gazed at the sea.

serenity,i just don't wanna miss a single sight.

just as i pictured it before,

cool air,great view and good music.

its what i've always wanted from the sea.

slept at about 5.20am.

woke up at 10am,saturday.

went for cycling with cousins and mom.

went for a swim atfer that.

dad's teaching lil sis and cousin how to swim.

in the end,they still couldn't get it right.hehe,maybe next time you'll learn how to =)

darn tired,

went back to sleep at 3pm.

that night,uncle came and fetched us home.

lots and lots of stuffs to carry back.

muscles ached like shit!

i swore,the next time we're going camping,i'll just bring the tent and extra clothes.

oh,when i sat by the beach that friday,i kept thinking about my friends.

i realised life's a bore without them.

once in a while,you might wanna get away from them and spent time with family.

still,they make up a big part of me.

so when i have the chance to meet up,i will.

miss you guys loads!

the feeling sucks,seriously =(

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just created this.

not my best work yet.

what i like about it is the word "dream" in it.

soon enough,i'll have an album on my own.

what should i name it?

i'm thinking of something rhetorical.

a word that would silence my audience.

that'll be super cool =D

till the next update then!

oh,looking forward to tomorrow!! =DD

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lets talk about..

current track : Miss independent - Ne-yo

current mood : missing my super pals!

truth be told,i miss the guys above!

i don't mean myself because there's me in most pic.

that's because i don't have their pic alone.

if your pic's not in this post,don't worry coz i miss you guys as much as i miss them.

a few things to start this off,

i'm giving up on ciggarettes.i'm confident i can quit this time.

first of all,i may get stroke if i don't stop.i know i'm young,but the doctor said stroke runs in the family.

i'm grateful coz this is and eye-opener for me.

if i don't stop,i'd prolly get it by the age of 30 or worst,younger than that.

gosh,i don't wanna die young.

so i had a lil talk with a counsellor from CGH.

did you know,giving up on ciggarettes would give you a healthier future,a brighter smile,better sex and better breathing?

i know what your thinking of,

if i quit smoking,i'd be able to enjoy better sex! -.-

that's what most male smokers would think.

but hey,that's not a bad thing.better sex could be a great motivation ya know.

but for me,i don't wanna spend my entire life on medications.

and,i want to enjoy life to the fullest.

good enough reason to quit?i think so too =)

SABURAPI'S

i miss you guys fcuking loads!

but i can't come out.

i wanna show my dad that i'm capable of sitting home instead of going out!

i'll see you guys when i see yall!

current track : Give you my all - Eyes set to kill.

current mood : alright,i guess.

that pic is soo like taken ages ago.

when not really,it's during the F1 race at marina.

according to the situation,

i think i won't be meeting my friends for the mean time =(

i'd like to but the situation i'm in doesn't allow so.

maybe for a long time?

i'm not sure.

till this problems settled,i'll be staying home all day and rot.

MIA for short.

boring...

i want a bike for god sake!

i've been waiting for the right time where i can get it.

i want to fix all of it in one day,which of course,requires alot of time,which of course,i don't have.

=(

patience wearing thin.

i can't wait for that,seriously.

it's been a long time since my previous bike got stolen.

damn you whoever has my custom-made bike!

i spent alot of energy,time and money on it.

that bastard/bitch who has my bike is probably the luckiest a-hole lah..

let's look at it this way.

its just my size,good brakes,light-weight body and handle,good paddle grip,suspension tires,

what more?

its red and black.2 of my favourite colors lor..

whoever has it better put it to good use.

if your tricking with that bike,then good for you.

but IF you use it for going to the market or something,screw you la!

it will look like one of those "apek-apek" bikes lor!

hmmm,

i really miss my bike.

i know it kinda pathetic to miss an object instead of a subject,

but it's something close to my heart =(

i running out of words,

so you know the drill!

=)

current track : Spoken Hearts - some local band.

current mood : regret,confused.

first of all,i'd like to apologise.

for whatever i've done and said to you.

i didn't mean it.

i realised,i love you so much.

i can't believe i actually shed tears for you.

looking back at all the things that happened,you gave me chances over and over again.

i'm lucky to have you,seriously.

i can't face the future wihout your guidance.

my chest suddenly felt heavy when i think about it.

who's gonna do this,who's gonna do that?

since i'm the only male child,i realised its up to me.

but i'm not ready,teach me.

i haven't learn my lessons yet.

such a stubborn a-hole i am.

now,i know.

i didn't live up to your expecations.

all you wanted me to have was just a simple life.

back then i thought simple life's hard.

i'm not the sporty ype,nor am i the geek of the century.

either way,i could have done better than what i've become now.

your like a psychic.you know exactly where and when its gonna happen.

you knew my mistakes,way before hand.

you knew what i was gonna become.

you gave your best,

but i've failed you time and time again.

i owe it all to you,i'll give you my all,

even if its gonna drive me up the wall.

i'm looking for a job for the meantime.

i need to kill time,seriously.

if not so,i'll be up to no good.

i know myself.

i'll try to stop,but i end up doing something even worst.

so yeah,i don't want to give anymore problems.

i had enough of life as a defiant.

maybe when i'm a lil old,

when i have money,

then i'll enjoy =D