thanks,hope you burn in hell.

i actually have no intention to blog at all today.
seriously.
but its because of my dad's freaking naggings,i had to.
coz i had no one to turn to.
can't depend on my mom coz she couldn't bothered.
you can't depend on her,even if your life's in danger.
look,i don't mean to insult but i just had enough of this.
i want a different and a better understanding family.
unlike this bullshit...


the last time he told me that he couldn't care less about me no more.
so he ignored me.
i took his words literally.he thought i wouldn't have the guts to do anything.

so,i treated my house like a hotel.
that fustrates him.
wait,but i thought he said he couldn't care anymore??

as for today,i was about to go out an find a job.
out of the blue,he told me to stay home.
saying i couldn't be trusted.
same question popped in my mind,
i thought he couldn't care anymore??

now what the freaking fcuk is this huh??
don't you have better things to do than to entertain this useless(like you said) son of yours?damn it.

(go die la,seriously..i don't think i 'll show up for your funeral)

i hate it when someone promises you something..but in the end,breaks it.
its like a slap to the face ya know.

for example,
"i don't give a damn about what your gonna do now or then.its up to you.i can promise you i won't do anything to stop you!"

here's a big FCUK right in your face!
i'm full of lies?who's the bullcrap now huh??

if i stay home and rot,you get angry.
i go out to get a JOB AND NOT TO DO ANYTHING ELSE,you get angry.
i'll tell you what,get a grave and rest in peace.
i'm sure i won't be able to annoy you.
your happy,i'll be happier.
both parties win,sounds good right??

frigging fcukface,
i'm 18 damn it.
what are you to me?a father?
your behaviour is not my definiton of a father.
go find a son that suits your aspects.


all this,out of ego.
it hurts me to see my own flesh and blood.
i regret the times i felt sorry,i felt pity for you.
but i guess its just my genetics.


i can't wait for NS.
i can't wait to leave him.
but i'll definitely miss my family.

whoever reads this,what you think of me,its your problem alright?